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When I was a young girl, I had a few self-esteem issues. I was overweight. I remember a group of boys in middle school calling me Miss Piggy everyday. The thing is, I had friends and I was a pretty social kid, but that group of boys would not let up. At that age, having people make fun of my body on an almost daily basis was pretty hurtful. I couldn’t stand them.
And as if my weight wasn’t enough for me to worry about, I also felt like I had big feet. I remember wearing my mom’s size 10 shoes at the age of 10. I was 5’1” at the time and having size 10 feet just felt so unfair. My self-esteem suffered as I watched all my thinner friends and wondered why I had to deal with this burden of being fat with big feet. I shed my share of tears about it.
As I entered high school, I still felt uneasy about my body and uncomfortable in my skin. Luckily, baggy clothes were in style so I just covered myself up. It didn’t feel too bad because the jerks who called me Miss Piggy in middle school didn’t follow me to high school, so now I had to only deal with the occasional rude comment about my size. It was bearable.
Finally, I started to feel more comfortable about my body when I left home to go to college. I realized that I was beautiful, outside and in, and that I didn’t need anyone’s approval to make me feel like I was worthy. I think my confidence began to grow because of my involvement in school activities, my academic excellence, and my excitement about the future. I started to understand what God wanted for my life, and I realized it had nothing to do with my size.
By the time I was a senior in college, I successfully dropped 40 pounds from my 5’8” frame, and I can attribute a large part of my success to the fact that my motivation to lose weight was about my health and wellness — not about wearing a particular dress size.
I walked into my twenties with style and grace, feeling like a beautiful confident woman. I know that confidence has led to all of my greatest life decisions. The man I married, the kind of mother I am, the impact I have had on students, and the courage I found to pursue my writing career—these things are all inextricably linked to my ability to love myself just as I am.
Am I currently the weight I was when I lost those 40 pounds years ago? No, I’m not (two kids and life can do that to you). Do I feel confident and do I love myself? Absolutely! So much so, I started running a few months ago to get my health back to where it needs to be. I’m down 12 pounds and I am determined to get to a place where I feel stronger, more energetic, happier and healthier.
A few weeks ago, I completed a half marathon with a pair of size 11 sneakers my husband got me for Christmas (yep, my feet grew one more size in my twenties and I am not ashamed to say it!). Finishing that race felt incredible. When I crossed the finish line, I felt so great I said a prayer of gratitude in my heart, realizing that if I had to live my life all over again, I wouldn’t want to do it in anyone’s shoes but my own.
Are you happy with the shoes you’re wearing?
Christine K. St.Vil (founder of Moms ‘N Charge) & Julian B. Kiganda (founder of Bold & Fearless) are two sisters who decided to get together and write a book about gaining powerful insights from a spiritual perspective on why it’s important to find and fit into your own God-given shoes. They know this book has the power to change lives. You can grab your copy HERE.