I have had a rough couple of weeks. Travel and losing weight never mix well for me, and I went out of town two weeks ago. I enjoyed one too many pieces of chocolate cake and the bad habit crept into my life when I returned home.
Luckily, I have been able to maintain most of my workouts. If it wasn’t for that some of the lost weight would have found its way back to my thighs because I have been engaging in some serious emotional eating. I am way to self-aware to keep using food as a way to cope, but oh well. I guess that self-awareness goes out the door when my stress levels are high and there are brownies in the kitchen. Sugar always seems to be my drug of choice. I actually just ate some frozen custard with vanilla sprinkles from Rita’s before typing this. #WorkInProgress
So, I am down about 17 pounds from December. I’m happy about it. And, oddly enough, it really hasn’t been about the weight as much as it’s been about my desire to feel comfortable in my own skin. I hate walking around with low energy, feeling bloated and tired. It sucks. I also hate feeling like even when I buy clothes that’s the right size, they still don’t feel comfortable. That has been what the last few years have felt like for me.
So although I am still not at my goal, I feel so much better about my health and my fitness level. My legs feel strong, my stomach isn’t bloated, and I can even see a little (and I do mean little) definition in my arms when I flex.
I also feel like I have more energy when I engage with my kids and that has made all the difference. You see, at the end of the day, I could care less about what people think about my size or my looks. What I do care about is keeping up with my children. I care about setting a good example for them. I care about my daughter growing up with a mom who is comfortable in her own skin. I care about escaping the legacy of stroke in my family and living to see my grandkids have their own kids. That’s what it’s about.
I plan to keep working out (4-5 days a week). Billy Blanks will remain my new best friend (although he voice annoys me sometimes — no offense, Billy). I also just started this new running app called Running for Weight Loss and that app is THE TRUTH! I love it. It’s really helping me step up my running games and burn more calories. Actually, that has got to be the only way I lost a pound this week despite all the freakin’ sugar I ate.
Anyway, I will keep you guys posted on my progress. Hit me up if you have advice or want advice. I know that losing weight is NOT easy, so if I can help anyone who is on that journey, I definitely will.