Tuesday, March 4, 2014

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A Letter To My Son on His Birthday

IMG_0059e2-ZF-2429-87339-1-001-015Dear Son,

I am in awe of the person you are becoming.  When I found out I was pregnant with you, I was filled with this indescribable joy. How excited I was about bringing life into this world, and I spent months wondering about who you would be.  I dreamed about what you would look like and what you would be like.  I was so eager to meet you.

When you entered the world, I bursted into tears.  I was so overwhelmed with joy, I didn’t know what else to do.  Trust me, I had no idea I would react that way. But I later realized that would be the first of many motherhood experiences where my emotions would get the best of me.  Motherhood is like that.

Today, as your turn 4, I find myself filled with so many feelings.  I am so proud of you.  You are kind, sweet, determined, energetic, gentle, loving , affectionate, and one of the funniest people I know.  I worry about you.  I worry about my ability to successfully navigate the educational system to ensure that you receive the education you deserve.  I worry about the way the world will receive you as a young Black man.  I worry about the day when you realize that some people will never see how wonderful you truly are because their ignorance won’t let them see past your skin color.  I have great hopes for you.  I hope that you have the courage to pursue whatever God puts in your heart.  I hope that you know, despite any cruelty you may face in the world, goodness is abundant.  You just have to train your eyes to see it.

I vaguely remember being 4. It was a fun time in my life.  Although I don’t remember much, I do remember being happy and feeling loved.  That’s really what any kid should remember about their childhood.  Not pain. Not hurt. Not rejection.  Every child should remember a childhood filled with learning, love, joy, support, encouragement, and acceptance.

Today, I thank God that I have been able to give you those things.  I am so grateful that your biggest source of hurt is not being able to watch television all day or stay up until 10pm.  I am thrilled that you think I’m a bad mommy simply because I said you can’t have candy before dinner–and for no other reason.

Enjoy your special day, son.  Laugh, run, eat, play, and laugh some more. I promise you that with each passing year, I will always do everything in my power to make sure that you always have the things you need in life. I will move heaven and earth to provide you with a strong foundation, allowing you to be yourself even when the world tells you that you should be someone else. I want you to grow up knowing that who your are is always enough.

May your 4th birthday be an awesome one, because a kid like you deserves nothing but awesome.

Loving you today and always ,

Mommy

  1. I love this! Happy Birthday M!

  2. donna blot says:

    Sorry were late but HAPPY BIRTHDAY Malachi..Uncle RoRo and Aunt Donna :)

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